AN UNSPEAKABLE EVENT

This post is probably the hardest one I will ever write. Only because I have just recently realized that some things are not good bottled up inside for years. So this is it. And I hope what I write today will help others who may have dealt with a similar issue. 

 My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was in 4th grade. The end of my 6th grade year, we were told her cancer had come back, and by the beginning of my 7th grade year, she had passed away. I do not like talking about about even after all these years. It took me over 6 years to visit her grave by myself. For me, if I did not acknowledge she was gone, she was still here. 

My advice for something like this, do NOT hold your feelings in. They eventually come bubbling to the surface, and it is not pretty. Talk to someone. Anyone. For me, I talk to one of my friends who is in the same situation. It makes for an easier conversation. Another great person to talk to, God. He is always there. Does not matter what time of day or night. He is always there to listen. You may not know why this happened to you, but He knows the answers. He will not tell you the answer because we will not understand. I also like to drive and have my own personal cry session. Sometimes a good cry is all you need. And yes guys, women like a man who is not afraid to show his true emotions (as long as you keep them in check). 

If you are in this situation know that I am praying for you. I know what it is like. Sometimes you feel lonely and like no one understands. I may not know the situation, but that does not matter. I hope this post helps everyone or even just one. 

If you have ideas or topics you want me to post on, leave a comment is the comment section below. (And follow me on twitter at @cbarrow007)

My Thoughts on the Single Life

Calling all single women!!!!

This post is for you! I am single myself so don't go thinking, "Another post written for single women by a married/currently in a relationship woman!" Like most women I spend almost all my free time on Pinterest, and most pictures I see are engagement photos or love quotes. The only thing that runs through my mind is "I want that." And I'm tempted to run back to the guy who was no good for me. Why? Because it seems like EVERYONE is in a darn relationship, and I'm all over perfecting the third wheel persona. I have been doing that for years! (And just a little more background on me. I'm 20 and have only dated 2 guys. So I have had plenty of time from high school until now to go on plenty of third wheel dates.)
But the truth is being single is fun as all get out. You don't have to worry about stepping on anyone's toes when you say something before thinking about it. You also can sit at home in your pj's and no one will judge you. Oh and the best yet, the weekends are yours to do whatever you want!  Want to go to the beach this weekend? Pack up and go! No one is holding you here! Be free and go crazy! Stare at all the cute guys who drive by you while you are out doing whatever you do. Just have fun and live up the single life. Because when it's gone, it's gone.
It took me a while to figure that out. The 2 guys I have dated were not in the best situations. The first guy I dated because well I was at college and could do whatever the heck I wanted. The second one.... I dated him because everyone around me was in a relationship, and I wanted that so bad. That relationship didn't last very long. I'm waiting on my knight in shining armour  to show up. I'm tired of chasing after the jesters!

I will leave you with this quote though...
"Don't let loneliness drive you back into the arms of someone you don't belong with."

A few things I've learned

Okay so first off wow. It has been a long time since my first and only post. I've done some growing up since then as well. I've graduate high school and have started college, and I've also experienced and learned a ton of things. So in honor of this glorious post, I have compiled a list of things based on my experiences.

1. Don't be afraid of mistakes. Everyone makes them, not just you. I made a ton of mistakes between graduation and moving back home (we will talk about this later).

2. Own up to your mistakes. They are a learning experience for a reason. Yeah you feel like a complete dummy when they happen but hey, what are ya gonna do?

3. I shouldn't have moved across state to go to college, but I'm glad I did it. This the part from above. I moved off to college for one year and decided that it wasn't for me. So, i packed up my things and moved home. There is nothing wrong with wanting to come back home! I met a lot of great people... but 7 hours from home was way too far for me.

4. Listen to your elders and peers. A girl I played basketball with told me not to date my freshman year of college for multiple reason. For starters, hello, I was 7 hours from home and was on my own for the very first time. Talk about stress!! Then add in trying to keep a relationship going along with everything else school related. If you think you can handle it, more power to you!

5. Find a good church or youth group. They will end up being there for you more than your "friends" will, and they are like family. It took me until second semester to find a great church and youth group. But when I found them, they were amazing. They kept me accountable with my spiritual life along with other things (they also make a great study group).

6. Call home whenever you get the chance. I'm not talking about just your parents. I'm talking parents, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, EVERYONE! I made it a point to call my family at least once or twice every two weeks. It makes being away from home a little easier to cope with.

This is a short list compared to others, and this is no where close to everything I have experienced. Either way, I hope you enjoyed it. I hope to post more things up here from now on :)

Hello to everyone who might read this. I hope you are having an awesome day. I know I have. In this blog I hope to give you an insight on what it is like to be a high school senior and an almost college freshman. But I also hope to cover topics concerning Bible verses and everyday occurances that interest me. For my fist post I am going to share with you about a book I am reading for school. We are reading a book by Randy Alcorn called Safely Home. This book is about the persecuted Christians that are living in China. It starts out going you a glimpse at a lowly Chinese man who is sneeking of to attend a house church with his family. The other man they give you a glimpse of is wealthy business man. You might be thinking what is this girl talking about. But just give me a few more sentences and I will get there. Te book goes on to tell you that these two men were college roommates at a college on America. Anyway the two end up together in china while the business man is there on business. The lowly Chinese man is put into prison because of his faith in Jesus Christ. The wealthy business man is so intrigued as to why the other man will not recant his faith. The Chinese man simply states that God will keep him from harm and he will end up safely home. For me this book kinda hit home with me. I struggle daily to keep up a Christian image. Reading this book taught me that I need to be more grounded in my faith. The lowly Chinese man suffered greatly for his faith and never waivered. Tonight at youth group we watched a video on the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirrit was sent to give us strength to push on through trials and hardships. Many people do not want to listen to the Spirit because it will hold them accountable for what what they have done. But anyway, that is my first blog post. I hope you enjoy reading it, and I will try my best to keep this blog stocked with fresh blogs every week or every other week. So keep checking back and I hope you enjoy!